My heart has been completely torn apart

[I_Surrender]

Well Monday at work, is much better than last week. I made an appt. with a new counselor for Weds. I need someone a little more empathetic to help me get over this betrayal and aide me with my coping skills.

When any man finds out what a B she is really, she won't be living with anyone very long.

I went through an emotional range , before Friday afternoon, I was 90% for D, then after our chat I was 70% for, then after Sunday I was back to 90% for again.

I feel that I need someone much more loving to me, to be with, if ever I consider entering into a relationship again.

The things that she said about her own daughter this weekend were so disturbing. I can't fathom a parent having this much animosity toward their child (even if she is an adult.)
I am actually sad for her, instead of mad at her.

I am still going to take my time, and not rush. I realize that the healing in my heart is beginning to take place, already. I have begun to forgive myself and her. That does not mean acceptance, but it does mean I can begin to let go of harmful emotions.

I am mentally making a plan of action (GAL) for myself, and have started thinking of what divorce could possibly bring financially.