All indications from my W is that she is running to D. I really do not think that there is anything that I can do to stop her. She sent me an email today stating "I will do my best in communicating with you inregards to the girls, they need to live in peace even when we are not under the same roof."
She has not given any indication to me that she has any positive feelings for me or our M/R. I guess I have to take her advice and start getting used to the fact that there is no more us. It is just hard to stop dreaming about our future since everything prior to these last 5 months had our future at the center of it. BTW today an aniversary date of when the bomb was first dropped on me. I don't think she knows this, maybe she does.....
She has IC tonight, but, I nolonger hold out any hope that this is going to help our M. My W is finding herself and going to share it with the OM not me. You would think that a Christian Counseler would encourage my W to get me into counseling with her but that does not seem to be the case anymore. So much for her counseler being pro-marriage.
My W has always been a person that once she makes up her mind she acts and all appearances indicate that she has made up her mind. My hope has faded... I need to do what is best for me and my 2DD. This just means that things are going to get really ugly, we both are going to want full custody.
This again sucks.... I need to move on and start a new life without my W.
