Thank you mrs.cac. Funny I should find so much support for this crisis from an SSM board...it's amazing how life works!
You know, I see some of that grit and determination in both you and your H, particularly in all that you went through to have your son. My parents have a similar story about their struggle to have a second child ( me) after several miscarriages. No matter what they went through in life, that phase of life seemed to be the glue that held them together.