Back from a weekend out of town and just wanted to say hi and thanks for the advice. There was some weird distance this weekend. Not sure why. I know on the drive home, he got "reminded" of the past via certain towns we pass, etc. He does this every time we drive to and from our hometown. So it was a long 3 hour ride with him being very stiff and saying he did not want to talk.
On Thursday night, before we left town, I did try and "rock his world," but it was kind of so-so. I did initiate watching a porn movie (we have several on tape), which was kind of on in the background (volume down). We didn't sit and watch it together. I did oral a lot longer than I usually do and used lots of lube and tried to be varied with my hands. (taking advice from Lou Paget's book). He is on anti-depressant meds, so has a lot more staying power than he does normally. He stopped me and said he wanted to be inside me. We had good sex, then he came and said it was a good one. He said thank you afterwards. (to which I said, You don't have to thank me, I enjoyed it too.) I also initiated us taking a shower together the next day before we left town. He seemed surprised, (which surprised me), but he liked that also. The first day we were home, he said something about it, how he liked it.
We went to a Tool concert Friday night. It was fun. There was no drama with our friends Missy and Joe, except that the next day Joey said he thought she was being bitchy. I said I didn't notice.
For Mother's Day, he had already bought cards for me and his mother, both from him and the kids, (4 total). I thought that was nice. We picked out a bird feeder together for his mom while we there. I just got the card. He had not even planned to take me out to dinner, which kind of pisses me off. We talked Sat morning about how we wanted to spend the next two days. He said he had some shopping he wanted to do in Wichita, and I said, "Why don't we do that Sunday instead of today, since it's Mother's Day, and we can go out to eat?" He said ok. Where do you want to go? I said I'd like for you to pick. He didn't know. Makes me mad that he didn't plan ANYthing, other than a card, didn't even intend to eat out with me. This was a huge deal my first Mother's Day and when I let him know about it, he went out and got me a guilt gift the day after (a Yankee candle, which I loved.) We decided to go to a Japanese steakhouse on Sun. and we all enjoyed ourselves. (Kids thought it was cool!)
Anyhow, I did buy Passionate Marriage while we were in a bookstore after lunch. (Happy Mother's Day to me!!) I showed him the Sex section and threw a couple of books at him, asked if he saw any he liked. I walked off with the kids and he was there reading for a bit, but came back empty-handed and said he didn't really see anything. So, I bought PM and started it on the drive home (when he was mute).
He bit my head off a few times over the course of the weekend, particularly at the end, and it appeared later that it was about his money stress? Today, he is acting like nothing is wrong, but not necessarily loving either.
I believe we have a MC session tonight, so I need to call him and confirm that. Thank you VERY MUCH for reading along and giving me your thoughts/comments/suggestions.
