Hindsight 20/20 II it's over

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Hi UA,
So good to here from you. I am back to being a mess again. I thought we were going to work on it. I guess I was the only one willing. She said she was willing to but she never gave us time to really reconect. She was still talking to her ex boyfriend who is engaged
and I knew if but she was still telling me he was just a friend. That may be true. But the hiding of the calls made it so I had a hard time trusting. I loved her with all my heart and gave up everything for her. But she carries baggage around from her past. I guess I was just used so she could get back home. I wish she would have done counseling with a coach to. I know it could have been different. But as long as she thinks I am the only one with a problem theres not much I can do. I will be leaving with in the month to go back home to Oregon. I will miss her dearly. This was my soul mate. I know it in my heart. I guess I love to much and to deeply. My belief in god makes it impossible for me to file and I don't know what to do when it comes time to signing the D papers. I would rather not sign and just let the courts take care of it. I made a vow to her and god and if she wants to break that vow it will have to be on her and not me. I have not had time to review your sitch but I hope all is going well for you.