Wife hits me.....need help....

[~Sol]

I got physically abused by my W this morning. Yelling, screaming, threw the flowers and card I gave her for Mother's Day.

She rejected them by not thanking me for them and was indifferent about the flowers - not appreciative at all. She told me she couldn't wear them around her neck and that I never get her anything. She was BBQing steak and chicken in the back yard, and I was helping. I later told her how I felt about her not being thankful or appreciative that I got her SOMETHING.

We have a LATE HOUSE PAYMENT....that I will pay this FRIDAY!!!!!

Yesterday she wanted me to buy her GOLD JEWELRY as a gift from me to her for Mother's Day. She KNOWS that we are behind on this month's house payment. yet she was angry that I didn't get her any jewelry!!! She says that if I really LOVED HER that I would buy her something worth while.

When I expressed my feelings to her about her rejecting the flowers, she got defensive and that's when it escalated. Now, I didn't push her into this, I wanted to EXPRESS to her HOW I FELT ABOUT HER REJECTING MY GIFT. I was HURT by it. I told her and I DID NOT YELL, but was CALM......

I worked on a tattoo on her upper arm yesterday. It was a portrait of her mother, in black and gray. It is stunning, but she wanted me to finish it. I told her that I was too upset to work on it and that I do not work on artwork when I am upset - especially a tattoo that is going to be permanent. Now, I felt like poking her extra hard with my needles because I was upset, but I refused to work on that portrait on her. That's when she got upset that I wasn't going to finish it today, and all hell broke loose.

M W started accusing me of not loving her, 10 years of misery, that I don't like women (she's referring to the unsatisfied sex life), etc, etc, etc...............

She then threw the flowers at me and tore up the card I had just given her. She got right up in my face and starts throwing other objects, and that's when she hit me and kicked me. I let her, I am not going to get suckered into THAT scene with the police. SS was up having breakfast and watched the whole thing. I just took her beatings. Then she tells me to just move the hell out and pack my things. I tell her that it is MY HOUSE TOO, and I asked her how she was going to make the house payments if I move out?? I am NOT GOING ANYWHERE.......she's trying to put me in a bad spot, and I already think she knows how to do that - having divorced friends and all......

I am at an internet cafe typing this, but I will return home later on.

I am at my limit again, I don't see us getting any better and I think that we need to split up if we are going to have some kind of "CIVIL FRIENDSHIP" in the future regarding our duaghter.

Oh, one thing she pointed out, crying and yelling at me, is that she told me she will not leave me to make me suffer, and says that she can;t because she feels obligated to stay together for our daughter's sake.

C'mon on !!!!!! She wants to run me out of the house but she says she won't divorce me or she will kill herself??????????

I NEED SOME SERIOUS HELP HERE!!!!!!!!!!! But I am sure I want to go our separate ways for my own sanity.