Ok got went out to get the mothers day card with my son. I got one with just some pink flowers on the front. In side I’m going to write: Happy mother’s day and my name.
I usually sign “love ya always” but I’m leaving that out this year. My son did ask me how come I did not buy him a gift. (Which I usually do) I just told him well she is not really my mom she’ yours.
When we got home I told her I was waiting for my friend to call. She asked if I was going out tonight I said yes. She then asked what time? I asked why? She said she wanted to go out for pizza tonight. I said that fine I can go out after. I did tell her last night since I could not contact my friend then That I was going to be going out tonight so she did know but then again in could have been one of those selective memory things she has been having lately.
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Now she is acting like everything is rosy. Is anybody else living in a world like this? She had never mentioned the D word. She is not intimate at all. I don’t know what to think. Maybe i am sleeping and when I wake up it actually my wedding day and I’m having a premonition. Maybe none of this has happened yet and it’s a look into the future. If it is I’m out of her the wedding is off.
The detaching seems to be working I think. But how long do I do this. Do I wait until she makes the first move? Stop the world I want to get off……….. Can’t wait to go out tonight and leave this all behind. Who knows I might meet someone and have an affair myself?
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Help me people the thoughts of an affair has crossed my mind. Not as revenge just as companionship. It’s like I to can live in two worlds also. Is this normal? Like I said I would not do this a getting back. It would be finding someone I could talk to. You all are great but it would be nice to have someone you could see face to face
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I agree, maybe my mind is being poisoned by all this. I feel my Vows and my trust have been compromised. Actually it was her vows. I have stuck my mine.
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Actually now that I think about many years ago between marriages My High school sweetheart wanted to start up something with me. I did tell her I would love to resume are relationship as soon as she gets divorced. She never did and we never did… So I guess somewhere I do have morals
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
