I don't know how I'll get through it without doing some form of comedy, writing or stand up. BTW, THE Alaskans are a tough crowd. ("If you can do Nome, you can do anywhere"....) Talk about depression/alcoholism, since I don't do "dick jokes" I have to work really hard to get them to loosen up. I feel like they're waiting for me to start taking my clothes off and it's minutes before they realize, "Oh, she's going to be funny, not naked...we'll have to LISTEN to her words...and THINK..." ((This is Not just in Alaska, it's anywhere the drunkeness is just out of control. After 2-3 drinks, most people can't follow a joke more than 2 lines long...(sigh) ah the troubles of the entertainment world))).
I remember some idiot up there at a social gathering, told me in front of everyone, (while stroking his hairy chin, with its' pseudo-Freud beard), "You use humor as a coping mechanism...." BRILLIANT!!!! OMG, HOW'D YOU KNOW??!!! Instead, I said, "well, beating up old people just wasn't doing it for me anymore..." Sheesh!! He wasn't much of a laugher...more later.
KML, one thing that scares me and embarrasses me at the same time, is knowing that if I just sit here in sunny Californis, and file for D, h would have to pay me some decent money until if and when I remarry. Not just child support. It's a long term M and his income, right now, outpaces mine by far. Staying at home did not help my legal career, needless to say. And that was a sacrifice no matter how h's can spin those of us who stay at home. You can debate that all you want, but it's legally a fact. So, there's a tiny part of me screaming that by getting a well paying job, although it's up there, I'm losing a legal advantage. Sometimes being a L, does not help one's marriage... j-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
