Isn't that a great quote! Thank Martelo for that. To me it means sometimes you have to give up, that not every mountain can be climbed, not every problem solved-- that some things are too dangerous or painful to do just to prove that you can do them. It's okay to walk away from some challenges. I love it!
Yeah, honey, I understand the feeling of wanting to control the swirling maelstrom of events and possible events that you and your family are in the middle of right now... there is no way to control it. Right now you're in the white water rapids, and you just have to fasten your seatbelt and hang on. If you can find some small scrap of serenity to cling to while the waves toss you... that can help a little. One thing I used to do (and still do) when my thoughts start churning like Niagara Falls is to repeat the Shema over and over again in rhythm with my breath, like this: Breathe in as you say "Shema Israel," breathe out as you say "Adonai eloheinu," breathe in again as you say, "Adonai echad." I would do that over and over and over again like a mantra. Just to give my mind something solid to focus on.
