Thanks to both...H called last night on his way to work at Casino. He deals there now and says he is not going to pursue it as a carrer?! But, likes working at the casino as a dealer because no stress. Anyways, said that he dosent want us to divorce. He says that Im not seeing the progess that has been made. Ie...comes over, loves me, brings me little cards, flowers, has gone to church w/me a few times and etc. He also said he feels that he is working on the marriage by this its just not in my way or as fast as Id like it. But, says he understands/is so sorry for the things that he has done and etc. But, he understands my decision.
I feel so torn here....He was such a great H until the last few years. I wonder if Im in love with a ghost? Are there couples out there that really come back from this?
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
