Thank you for your help. I have read the book and am trying to apply the principles. Some days, I am in such a good place and then I slide back to being a basketcase. Does that ever stop? I'm so sick of myself sometimes.
I know--baby steps, but it's so hard!! The thing that struck me the most is: figure out your gut reaction and then do the opposite. Like today, my gut reaction was to give him a kiss--I should have done nothing, right? That would have been the complete opposite. I do want things to work out, but I really think I will be okay if they don't. Like I said earlier, some days I'm positive I'll be just fine without him and then 30 minutes later, I'm thinking--how am I going to survive the pain if it doesn't? I have dealt with so much pain already.
Thanks for saying you'd check up on me. He said he was coming over tomorrow since he has to work on Mother's Day. So, we'll see what happens.
Good morning farmtown46!
The thing that is sticking with me from your post is: "how am I going to survive the pain if he doesn't"
Detachment.
As far as your 180......well.....these are tricky. I think it was wise not to kiss him. When doing 180's I guess the trick is to do them on the things that drove our S out of the M.
I like Jeff's idea of leaving him an IOU. It's a safe, no pressure way. I also suspect that maybe he was trying to surprise you with the lawn.
I think you are off to a great start Farm! You have a great attitude. You have positives from your X.
Keep your cool and act "as if" today with your X. Make sure and let us know how it goes!!
Have a great day! ~SE
I'm moving on...at last I can see...life has been patiently waiting for me.
Me-32 WAH-35 DD-11 DS-4 H left 11-03 Piecing- 12/04 WAH again- 03/07 Married 12 years Divorce final May 15, 2007
