FT46, Good attitude and if H is in IC that is very good. An his response "No, it is just me" is very positive. Most WAS here never admit they are the cause of anything or they need help.
Baby steps yes, but I don't believe in them directly. If you focus on each interaction and try to "score" it then you will drive yourself crazy. This is not a competition where judges hold up a card with a 9.2 score on it.
Here IMO you have to look at the whole picture. What do his actions add up to? It is the total score that counts, not the individual events.
The lawn: He may have came early for many possible reasons. For example to surprise you when you found the lawn cut (positive) or that he did not want to see you (negative). He may not have been able to come later. You cannot read his mind so why assume anything? But look overall: I assume he does not HAVE to cut the lawn. So that is called acts of service (read the Five Lauguages of Love if you have not). And he is being sheepish when coming around. That may be from guilt but also b/c HE does not want to be rejected. He seems to be taking it slow. Let him.
Same on the kiss. Why kick yourself? You did fine. I bet he went home and said "She KISSED me!! Woo Hoo!!!" and then he said "She only kissed me b/c I cut the lawn, what a loser I am to expect she is still interested". He is most likely going through emotions here also.
But do play a bit hard to get, not to punish him but to be a bit distant to make him wonder. Guys like that. Remember how to flirt after 16 years? If not, study up.
I fear to tell you the backsliding never seeems to end. That is why you focus on the bigger picture, not individual events.
Don't want to ask him out? Don't. Instead leave a note on the lawnmower that says "IOU one ice cream cone for one mowing. Thanks. Let me know when I can take you to Dairy Queen to collect". Or something similar if you all don't like ice cream or there is no Dairy Queen.
Luck. I noticed you did post on other forums but once you get some activity going then try to stick to one place. It will make it easier to find you. Also, if you read other threads leave a post even if it is one of encouragement. Folks here like that.
