Tonight while emailing a few people my wife questioned me about what it is that I was doing on the computer. So I told her about the message board and that I am in contact with another DB'er that was actually in my W shoes a year or so ago. She did ask to read the emails. I wasn't actually dead set againest this, but I did not let her read them. She eventually appoligized and told me since there is no "us" then she had no right to question me.
I really have to learn how to control my facial expressions. My W can read me like a book. Everytime she says something that I feel is a cop out/excuse for were we are at today I get a grin on my face.. this does not help things any, but, I cannot help it.
I have another problem in that I am to honest. Seriously, ask me anything... Well my W asked if I have gone to see a lawyer and with me being the honest dude that I am I told her that yes I have seen a lawyer for information purposes only. I also told her that I would not file for a D and that I did not believe in them. I do not know if this gave her more to noodle on or not we will see.
These last 3 days I have talked to my wife more then I have in the last month... Maybe a babystep maybe not.... She still seems very much like she is planning on leaving me but she will not take our girls out of my life. She tells me that I need to compartmentalize the girls and our M. The M is over and we are still parents this won't end.
I read on another thread that you have to earn the right to quit. I do not feel that she has earned that right yet. She admitted tonight that she has been having these feelings for years and that she danced around them and never addressed them with me. My fault is that when I sensed this I kept my mouth shut, I cannot totally blame her for that. But I do not feel like she has earned the right to quit. She did say tonight that though she feels like she should hate me, she doesn't... Is that a good or a bad statement?
I should mention that I am buying a new car. Does that count for GAL?
