Thank you for your help. I have read the book and am trying to apply the principles. Some days, I am in such a good place and then I slide back to being a basketcase. Does that ever stop? I'm so sick of myself sometimes.
I know--baby steps, but it's so hard!! The thing that struck me the most is: figure out your gut reaction and then do the opposite. Like today, my gut reaction was to give him a kiss--I should have done nothing, right? That would have been the complete opposite. I do want things to work out, but I really think I will be okay if they don't. Like I said earlier, some days I'm positive I'll be just fine without him and then 30 minutes later, I'm thinking--how am I going to survive the pain if it doesn't? I have dealt with so much pain already.
Thanks for saying you'd check up on me. He said he was coming over tomorrow since he has to work on Mother's Day. So, we'll see what happens.
