Sashaying thru Seperation II

[mcojh]

I agree Frank, on the availability piece. My problem is that I have two flawed thinkings. 1 is that if she is with me, she can't be with the FOM. I think that every moment with me and not him helps me. I am not sure if I have the strength to "abandon" her and be unavailable. 2 is I can't resist her. I truly love her and want to be with her. I never appreciated how much until this mess started.

Then you combine that with the A, and I really start to lose my mind. I know she is seeing and/or talking to the OM, and that really drives me up a tree. She went to a co-workers house for a few drinks tonight, and I am fighting my inclination to drive by and see if the FOM is there as well. So far I am not going to do it. When she told me what she was doing tonight, I told her if they got too deep into the margaritas, to call me rather than drive. As she left, she told me that she would call if she needed me to drive her.

Trying my best to smile and wave.....