Just when I am trying to move on, my H starts being nice to me. I figure it is because we are having mediation in a week. I don't know which is harder on me, him being nice or him ignoring me completely. This is so hard. I know i have feelings for him still and I am trying not too. Plus, I know that he stays over at the OW house often (when he doesn't have the kids). This sickens me. I have also heard that she has stayed over at our house, which sickens me more. AAAAGGHHH.
