Rob--I'm glad this seems to be normal. It's just weird to be feeling wigged out when my life is really good. I think it's just hitting those milestones, you know? I think after this summer I'll be able to pack it away. It's my goal anyway.
Jeff--yeah, it's about a year-ish now. I'm glad you recognize the changes; hell, I feel like a whole different person...no, no, that's not really it. I feel like my AUTHENTIC person, the person I always wanted to be but was weighed down with all sorts of negative thinking and feelings and baggage. There are days I feel like I could fly I'm so happy and light.
Sorry your sitch is still a pain. If your W would give half the attention to working this out to fighting with you...but oh well. You've gained a lot, you've come a long way, and some woman is going to be very lucky because of this experience. You helped me a ton last summer...it's why I still hang out in this place. I figure "old timers" like you and Cherrish helped me out, so it's my responsibility to do the same.
Today I refocused on me, on my PMA, on GAL. H had a work function to go to, so I took a long walk through the neighborhood. I live in the most incredible climate and today was textbook perfect, so I just basked in the beauty of my world. I literally stopped to smell the roses (and the jasmine and the lavendar) and just celebrated my life. Then I came home, made dinner, and poured a lovely glass of wine. I've just been enjoying the quiet in the house and the time to reflect.
I am so lucky. I need to remember that when I get into a funk. This M thing is going to be a process of hard work for the rest of my life. It's that hard work, that consciousness that keeps it fresh.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
