OK, what is wrong with me now? All I want to do is lock the door and be alone.

My kids love me and want to play with me and I'm getting annoyed with them for no reason. Mom wants to play and I don't want to.

The walls are all back up, like they never left. I don't want to talk to anybody. I don't want to play with anybody. I'm hungry and I don't want to go to the effort of fixing something to eat either. This has happened before, and I don't like it. I can't get myself out of this mood either. And I'm scatterbrained as bad as ever.

I hope I'm better tomorrow. Or next week at the earliest. I have an appointment next week, so maybe I'll have to change my medicine again.

For those of you on medication, do you have days, or even several days in a row, where it flat out doesn't work? Is it something to do with digestion, maybe? Or maybe I should try a higher dose? I think I'm already maxed out on one of them. Or maybe a new doctor whose sessions go better for me?

I'm getting seriously worried that I'm not going to ever get completely better.

a fine and enviable madness, this delusion that all questions have answers, and nothing is beyond the reach of a strong left arm.