I was a little taken aback at 1) you would assume that I have not tried to help my son, including therapy or counciling and 2) you assume that I need help. My son will have to want to commit to get help and we are talking about that very thing for the last couple of months. He is 18 and legally and adult in the eyes of the law and responsible for his own actions.
What I relayed to everyone on my last post was how free I feel to finally see her and OM for what they are. I have been through the worst of it, all without pills or booze and still proud of that. No I am not too proud to take help BUT....I have been through the worst of it and did it only with God's grace and a lot of prayers and support from my friends and family.
I feel that going "cold turkey" was best and better for me in the long run. I don't take any meds and I don't want to start now.
I finally can say honestly that I gave it all the time I was willing to give. I can walk away clean with the fact that my son and I gave her every oportunity in a year to have a way out, to come home to her family and I know I did all I could to give her space and time.
I believe now more than ever that she knows what she is doing. I believe that there is no MLC for her, that this is truly what she wants-to live in a trailer with OM with no job and live off the little lottery ticket that the divorce will bring.
I also believe that SHE WILL BE BURNED BADLY BY OM-probably after the money plays out.
I also believe that she will "wake up" to her wicked ways when this happens.
I also believe that she will put on a "I don't remember that" bulls*&t story.
I also know that I will not be around to hear her bulls**t when that day comes.
RCR, I repeat again I am feeling a little better each day. I know I can get along without her and I don't want damaged goods anyway.
I have not turned my back on my son. BUT....why does she not get to be responsible anymore-she is capable. She takes care of OM and his daughter-why not her son? Don't give me this MLC bull saying that is the reason. If it were true, she would not be ABLE to take care of others AT ALL.
Why can't she take him. It would mess up her heaven on earth. Her I don't have no responsibilities except drinking and no job and no one to tell her what to do.
Did I mention that when my son was in the hospital the time before last, she had to ask OM for gas money to go see him. I did not believe that until her sister told me the same thing. Sound a little controlling, does it not. No job, no money coming in, living in OM's trailer and nothing in her name-sounds like she has really painted herself into a corner, doesn't it.
RCR-SHE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT SHE IS DOING. There is no excuse for what she has done. When I think of her at all, it is never good thoughts, only of what more damage she can do to my family.
Enough is enough-this marriage was a lie for awhile and now I can see it clearly. Whatever happens to her in the future I will not be there. That is the way it must be for us..
By the way, my son has given up on her as well-his words, sad to say.
I promise to take care of my son the best I can as I have done ALONE financially and otherwise for over a year now.
Where is she, oh yea, playing "house" in the travel trailer with bald head biker and tatooed meth head daughter, nuff said.
RCR, I thank you for caring so much for mine and my son's well being. It is really all in God's hands now. He is the only one that we all have to be judged by one day. My conscious is clear.
