If you ever read my post about how I discovered the emails, I was in the shower, anticipating our Date Night, which he never seemed to get too excited about (not spontaneous enough) and I was drinking wine and literally thinking, "Wash the Mom away." I was consciously aware of this as an issue and his recent comments about our R and SL were making me think I need to step it up. I was TRYING to! Still didn't matter . . . grrr!
Oh, and the day BEFORE that, I gave him a partial hand job as we were driving long distance (kids asleep in the back). I didn't bring it to fruition, but it's not like I don't EVER do things. I am really making an effort.
Ok, so I sent him an email reiterating that I am looking forward to him coming home and I want to do him! I gently said for him to be careful not to say anything that would indicate I am not enough for him, that it only increases my inhibitions. I know I maybe should have just let it go, but I need to let him know how I feel and how he can HELP. I will let you know what kind of reply I get. I really appreciate everyone's advice.
