Cadesmom34, when you say you never gave up. What did you do? Just keep the hope alive in your heart or were there actions also? You are right that the marriage would be stronger, than if it never happened. I really believe it would be a much better relationship if we got back together.
Greeneyedlass, I can keep the hope, but if she says it's over and won't change. I can hope all I want, but it won't change her. Why won't she give me that one more chance? That's an excellent question. I don't really know. She says that "it's too little, too late" or "how do I know it can be different"?
Corri, if you feel I need it, get rude. I can take it. I have read the DR but not DB. Isn't DR an updated version of DB? I'll go read "can't cope"'s thread too.
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It's been an alright week. I've finally getting back to business and focusing much better. Had an appointment with a trainer last night at the gym to help me make the most of my sessions. He worked up a good plan for me. I'm going to try to go everyday...
I've lost 22 lbs, now down to 183 since all this crap started. I really feel much better about myself. Eating much better too. Not eating mexican and pizza 4 times a week, like the wife and I used to do. When I last saw her, I think she gained all the weight I've lost, plus some. Of course, I'd never tell her that.
I've really tried to not think about the relationship/marriage. I still do at times and still get mad and hurt. I don't know if this is good or not. I do miss her, but I'm not so focused on it any more.
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In my wife's email (copy posted above) she said that she had gotten most of my items out of the house and if I found any to just put it in her closet.
I've looke around the house pretty good, and I see a lot of stuff that she left. Stuff that I would have no use for. I could fill up her closet several times over with all the stuff.
It's really odd, and I don't want to read into this something that's not there, but it's almost like she took enought stuff to live at her new place, but didn't take everything that was hers.
Should I start gathering up stuff and put it in one of the spare bedrooms for her? Or, should I just leave it where it is?
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Going back to the house after she moved out really wasn't as painful as I expected. She had rearranged some of the futniture so it didn't look so empty.
I had really expected her to take everything of hers and that it was going to look real empty.
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One of my Uncles is an attorney and he urged me to sit down with her and get a "separation of property" worked out, while everyone isn't completely mad at each other. But I really don't want to push that until it gets further into the D process.
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I guess I just need to keep "laying low" and giving her "space." If I don't hear from her by sometime next week, may be I'll her... may be I should just wait until she calls me.
