Well...guys, I thought I was finally over H and ready to move on and so when my H waent on a business trip a few weeks ago ,....I did a no- no, I called the OW andleft a message that she can have him papers and all ,but that she had to put the pressure b/c H would not move out and that in the meantime I would also put the pressure on and continue to tell him to move out. I honestly believed or "tricked" myself into thinking thats what I wanted. WHen he returned he jsut kept saying that thats not whaat he wanted,but stupi me couldn't keeep my mouth shut. I said well just tke enough clothes for the rest of hte week,so.. on a Wendnesday night he did and did not return until(i think Saturday). I said I think b/c Saturday night h called me on my cell but I did not answer and the next morning when I got home his car and shorlty after he arrived via his motorcycle.
h gave me a big hug, but the wall I had put up wouldn't let me beleive he was being sincere when he said he was sorry and that he was "done" w/ her b/c she was psycho. I knew he wasn't really "done", but I knew she must of scared him somehow. I disengaged from his hug and all day after that he was just really to himself and laid on the couch all day.
Fast forward two weeks later and now he re did the D paperwork and it's starting all over again after soooo many months of no D talk!
Our A/C is not working and I tried to stall by saying we need to get this fixed before you leave us, but he does not care and says it's my promblem. Everyday he insists I sign the papers.
Help! Do yu guys think I pushed him too much and now he had a taste of what it's like to live w/ her (even though he called her pycho). He has not been so determined like this since nine months ago!
