I'm responding to your considering a D. I think a decision of D should be made from a position of strength and mental health. If you're struggling with depression, I would not make a decision to D at this time. You need to put your energy into DB, GAL, detachment, and other life skills, that promote mental health and happiness.
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CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."