Very thoughtful post. I continue to pray things will turn out since I see piecing is as difficult as D is in many ways. But regardless of what the future holds, I see a very different woman than I met a year ago; so much growth.
I too have an "anniversary": Tomorrow (11 May) is one year since I moved out of my house to give stbx "space". I expected to be gone four months at most. Instead I am arguing final settlement and I am still in my apartment.