I know I need to stop snooping. I'm hoping that once I get out of here and we are together as a family again maybe we can start to get things on track. He won't be able to run and see her, all they can do is talk on the phone. As much as that makes me sick to think about I do know there is nothing I can do about it. It's just really hard. He hasn't told me ILY in forever but doesn't mind telling me how it is between them. I have to admit I'm scared of loosing him. I've been married to him since I was 17 and I really do love him. I just can't seem to figure out where to go from here.
