During that year, I couldn't seem to do anything right, period... she wasn't there. And I managed to prove to myself and everyone else that I needed her there because relaxing and enjoying life and feeling good about myself only causes me to goof off and fail miserably.

Good Lord, it's been ages since I thought about that year. What a disappointment.

The last time I really thought about it was when my dad told me, shortly before I got married, that she really stayed behind because he was seriously contemplating divorce. I never knew that, although I don't blame him one bit; he must have been just as miserable living with her as I was. And now I wonder if he decided to reconcile because I was floundering without her influence. God, I hope not! I needed to find other ways to succeed without her, and he needed to find an attractive woman that knew how to treat people. I guess I'll never know for sure... he died a couple of years after that conversation.

She did make some changes when I was in high school... lost a lot of weight, treated him more nicely, went places with him, and so on. Thinking back, I would guess that even she was able to figure out that the way she was going, he wasn't going to have a reason in the world to stick around once I graduated. So I guess he did have a happy marraige in his last years, and she's a lot more pleasant to be around these days. Most of the time.

Last edited by Crazy Eddie; 05/09/07 09:22 PM.
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