still a confused mess

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I just got back from the counselor. It was ok. She seemed to concentrate too much on family histories and the past. She doesn't seem to know much about MLC and thinks H is just depressed. She advised me to see a L before our next appointment in 2 wks so I can make sure I am getting everything I should be getting. She understands me wanting to wait some and is not pushing for a D, but she thinks that H should be paying what he would after a D as a reality check. I really don't think I would get more than H is paying now, but it does make sense to talk to a L and find out.

I told her I wanted to focus next time on ways for me to GAL and to realize I can be happy without a man. She loaned me a book called "Slay Your Own Dragons" which should be interesting. I think I will continue to see her for a while but I will direct the conversation more in helping me GAL and overcome my problems and resist any pressure she might put on me to get a D.

She also suggested I should ask my cardiologist to recommend an antidepressant that would work with my heart problem, but I really want to avoid it if I can. My body overreacts to medicines and I am always the one who gets side effects.

fig, however did you find the strength!