Give up?

[still hoping]

RCR, I can't tell you how much you've helped me through these past few days. Thank you for that. You don't mess around and you get straight to the point. Really helped me figure out what it is I want by making me think everything through.

My decision:
I've decided to give up on my marriage for now, BUT I am not giving up on H as a person. I do not want to be married to the person he is now because of all the lies he has told and the incredible financial and emotional messes he has made without realizing them. I set my boundaries and he stepped over them. I do understand that he is going through MLC and doesn't mean to hurt me because he is only thinking of himself and is simply insane. OW is no longer an issue to me, but a very important part of helping him through his MLC. His MLC will take a long time and I will be there for him as a friend, if he needs me. He's my family and I love him as such. Should the "real" H ever surface as a better man and want to come home, I will still consider it.

Just needed to get that down so I remember when I'm reaching a low point, which I know will be again. But for now, I can see clearly again.