still a confused mess

[HalfMissing]

I am a bit concerned about the weight loss. I am 5' 7" and only weight 105 lbs even though I am eating more than I did before. (I gained back 5 from my low of 100, however.) I have a heart condition in which my body overreacts to adrenaline and thinks that it is exercising all the time. That is part of why I am so tired all the time now. Maybe I should be called 1/4 left. For everyone who thinks it would be great to be skinny, be glad you are not. I constantly have people ask me if I am sick or have anorexia.

Thank you for saying I am strong. My brother yesterday said I was not a strong person because I only work part time. I told him that that is why I thought I was strong. Before I had children I worked full-time. I made a choice to give up the extra money and be with the kids more by being part time. Being in control of your life and making conscious choices makes you strong.

I am so glad I made that choice to continue to work part time or I would be in so much financial trouble now. As it is, I plan to increase my hours a bit in the fall, but will still be able to drop off and pick up the kids from school. I am so lucky to have my job. If H stopped paying anything, I could immediately switch to full time and make the house payments on my own. My heart bleeds when I read about all the moms here that have to find a job and may lose their home. I told my D10 "this is why all women need options in their lives. You never know what will hit." She is so sweet, she said that in a few years she can babysit to make money to help out, but I told her she didn't need to.

I was a bit sneaky today and did some more Internet investigation of the OW to see if she is a scammer. Using my sneaky powers of deduction, I found out her full name, email addresses, and entire family tree including names and dates of birth of her children. All I had to start with was her first name and a phone number. Why are people so dumb to put this stuff online? It is begging for identity theft. I did a background check and found out that her story does make sense. She has no arrests on her record but her husband has some for domestic abuse. So she was telling the truth about being abused. I was concerned that there could be some drug charges or DUIs but there weren't. It still doesn't excuse what she is doing though. I am done snooping now and will not tell H anything.