You will. One day at a time. It sucks and it is tough but you have to do it. Everyone on these Boards has felt the exact same thing and know exactly where you are coming from. EO has done things and said things that they wish they could take back but can't. If I had a dime for every dumb thing during the past 5 mos I could even pay my Lawyer. Anyway, chin up, lots of DB and realize that this is the long haul.