Hi Halfmissing, I remember being where you are at...not eating, not being able to function at work, feeling guilty that I was being a horrible mom to D10...it's not fun!! The good news is that you're getting out of bed and eating cheesecake! Ok, sounds a little silly, but honestly, it's the little things that you need to appreciate about yourself right now. Feel proud that you are getting out of bed and going to work, feel proud that you have made an appointment to see a counselor, feel proud that you are here even if it's for journaling. You are working very hard on yourself right now and you should be proud!
As for the C, I think you'll just know. The first one I went to told me she was D and talked a whole lot about herself...maybe some people like to hear other people's experience...that's not what I needed at the time...I found another C and I knew I loved her right away. I have been seeing her for a while now and I still love going to my sessions. There were a couple of things I didn't agree on with her, but the key was that I felt comfortable enough to tell her and that made things even better. You just need to find someone who fits your personality.
Hang in there...you came to the right place... Unbroken
