HELP! not sure what to do now.

[kissak]

Thank you RCR and Y, I have been on this rollercoaster since Dec. I don't want to give up, but I'm at a loss, what do I do if he says he's done this time? For good, even though it may not be, since he goes up and down. I feel like he only came back last time because I stopped pressuring him. I try not to pressure him now, but he says he is looking for the old feelings to come back or new ones, so what do I do about that? How can feelings come when I don't do anything? I will try to not contact him this week, although he will have to contact me about son's ballgame. He will probably call to talk to kids, maybe.... He might even want to come over. I don't want to give up. Im not going to.