Rough night. I'll post more later. For now, got about an hour of sleep last night. Again, caught me sideways with somethings and then she wouldn't stop no matter what I said. I tried to just validate but really started to blow at it after about an hour.
She just wanted to make sure I understand how adamant she is that she is done. To stop trying, one of us has to be strong enough to call it and that one is her. Some good things, lots more bad. I finally said, look, I want to leave too. There is a side of me that wants out too, this hurts and is scary. She said "I can't tell you how apprehensive and desperate I feel at the thought of telling you I will try one more time. I can't tell you how it makes me feel". I said, look I'm just saying there is a side of me that wants to bail as well as a side of me that wants to dig deep and make this work. All I'm asking is for both of us to dig deep and try with everything we have because everything we have is at stake. Our kids, us, everything will be devastated.
