husband -- I have somewhat gotten to that point. That's what I keep telling myself -- I have no control over what he chooses to do. I just can't imagine that he would be able to live w/ himself if he was continuing to talk to other women when things have been so good w/ us. If he can and/or is doing that, he's not the man I want. I won't be 2nd best again and I already know that it would be over if he chooses to cheat again. I don't dwell on that either, but I am also trying to get to the place where I am happy w/ who I am and know that I would be ok w/o him if it comes to that. I don't want a H who cheats on me every chance he gets, especially when I, his W, am putting so much effort into the M and helping him to be fulfilled in our R. I'm here, taking care of our home, our little ones (3 of them -- ages 7, 3 and 1), working full time, etc. plus being supportive of him and not complaining or moaning & groaning about anything over here. If he chooses to go off & have another A while I'm doing all that and after all I did w/ the DB'ing, etc., he's gone.
I know that sounded all very negative. That's just my take on if it happens again. I truly don't think he's going to actually cheat on me again while he's over there, like I said, I'm still just a bit concerned about the EA/OW over here.
BUT like I said, I chose to stay, forgive & forget, so now I'm working on the forgetting/trusting again.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
