I understand all about leaning on the drinking and then finding that it has become a problem. Seriously consider the AA even if you feel like you are "not one of them." You can go to a meeting and just sit quietly or if someone talks to you, you can just tell them you are there to check it out.
I promise you, you will find 100% unconditional acceptance- I am a committed Christian and I tell you, you can go to many churches and not find 100% acceptance some times.
As others have said, keep checking in here and you will find others who have been in deep pain and many who still are in such pain BUT you will notice there is a lot of hope and lots of good happening in people's lives.
Blessings to you.
Keeping you in my prayers.
Committed2Him- "C2H" All Things (Back from Spain!)...18
