i was in a very dark place the other night and i am sorry that i worried u all. i am not ok and i realise that now, both me and my husband r depressed, the problem is i have had to cope with his depression over the past 11yrs and i am now having to take on too much. it is all too much but i am going to change things.......just reading ur responses has changed me...thank you. drinking is the biggest issue i am going to tackle first, i know this but it so helps me forget our problems, i feel ashamed cos i am intelligent and should know better. if i get my drinking under control i can then tackle the relationship.
