At this point I don't know if I even want to be her husband or her friend. I really thought that she'd quit this just before moving. I can't believe she has actually moved out. I know that I haven't been the perfect husband, but I didn't walk out. I didn't end it. She hasn't been perfect either. I never walk out. I never quit. She quit -- I can't stand that. She distroyed our marriage.
Part of me does want her back, but part of me questions if I could ever trust her again. Part of me just wants to move on and tell her to just go to hell.
Should I be feeling this way? Is this normal?
I don't think I'm going to talk with her for a while. If she calls I'll just let it go to voice mail. Then decide if I want to call her back or not. I can always control myself, but right now I might say something really mean and hateful.
I think she's really going to divorce me... I just hate her.
