What's happening? You sound more realistic about life.
I totally understand about the anger. That's a reasonable, rational reaction to what's going on around you. There is a lot to be angry about.
One of the key things for you to think about now is forgiveness. Forgiveness of him and yourself. Michelle has written a short article on it at Forgiveness is the gift you give yourself
There is no easy answer for why he's staying with you one night and then out with her the next. I guess he's confused. He doesn't know what he really wants.
You are obviously on to something with the impact that friend/business associate has on your H. It can't be a coincidence that H coming home is consistant with the times he's spent time with that man. I wonder if that's a relationship you can use to your advantage?
You are going really well with being 'dark'. I liked to read
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Still planning on keeping up keeping my distance. I did not contact him at all after our dinner last night (no e-mails, phone calls, voicemails, nothing -
late last week. That's fantastic. It seems to be working too, with him taking more initiative for kissing you etc.
The biggest skill I learned when I was separated from my H was patience. We so rarely have to be patient. If we want it we buy it or just go get it. Patience is truely a virtue and it's a hard, but valuable thing to learn about. You have way more capacity for patience than you think you do - so keep at it and keep reminding yourself that you are learning PATIENCE.
How was your weekend with your friend?
Are you still planning on going to your folks this weekend?
You are doing really well Tam. Keep it up and you'll make it.
Thinking of you, V
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
