Because it was an impulsive decision based on our conversation earlier in the day. When we talked that morning, she said she was going to have a few girls over. I joked that maybe she should have a Chippendale dancer over. Now-- she knows me well enough to know that I was just kidding.
Again, what is most upsetting is the fact that she tells me nothing inappropriate took place, yet she deleted all the pics from the computer. The problem was that she did not delete them properly from the camera after she downloaded them. In my opinion, many inappropriate things happened, although I did not see anything that bad with my wife. Only your basic lap dancing from a thong wearing stripper. Which she denied when I asked. So I am most upset about the deciept.
In my opinion, she knew I was upset over this evening before I returned home from vacation, therefore if nothing inappropriate happened, why would she delete the pics. If she showed them to me when I returned, although I would not have liked them, she could have explained the evening to me instead of coming off decieptful. In fact, I am sure our friends and husbands, (my friends too) would have gotten a good laugh. IF the stripper did things to my wife that I saw him to to some of the other women, it would bother me. Again, I must stress, the women were all dressed appropriately and I did not see anything truly sexual.
At this point I have avoided calling her on the carpet and telling her I have seen the photos. I don't know what that will accomplish other that getting her angry that I dont trust her. Although I am having a hard time trusting her now. I could not sleep again last night because I had those pics running through my head.
Our relationship has been so much built on respect and trust and I am so hurt by what I feel is decieptful behavior. My gut says let it go. Athlough in my opinion she mad an error in judgement bringing this guy into our house,without discussing with me, as a hardworking mother of 6 she deserves to have a fun night with her friends and doesnt need to give me a blow by blow account of what happened. But my heart aches over the thoughts her in that way.
Any suggestions to get th epics out of my brain other than massive amounts of alcohal?
