Well, the ILY part has never really been that difficult for me, a little more for him but he's got used to it over the years. However, I don't think it has or does mean the same thing to him, although we are getting there.
Oh, I know his mind works a lot differently than I think it does sometimes but for the most part, I know him pretty darn well and that is part of what scares him.
That "something" he is losing is control, the control over his vulnerability, the control over his feelings and emotions. I know he doesn't want to go "there" because of the fear "it" will happen to him all over again. He is scared he will fall deeply in love again, just to be stomped on, again. Well its time he realized I am NOT one of the other women he had a relationship with eons ago and I won't be the one that is punished for what someone else did to him. I've put up with that long enough. I was more than willing to prove myself to him, to show him that he could trust another woman, but I think 18 years is long enough. It's his turn.
And, yes, I know you weren't justifying my H's behaviour and I hope you don't think I was directing my disgust at you, because I was only venting here so I don't physically harm the man (kidding)
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
