Regarding your alcohol use:

20 years ago (5/1/07), alcohol was destroying me. I thank God that through AA I stopped drinking but then a couple months later, I became a Christian and God took the desire for alcohol away from me.

As a depressant, it isn't helping even though you are relying on it to ease the pain. If you need too, reach out to A.A. It may seem scary but you will find UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE at any A.A. group meeting, anywhere in the world, any time of the day. I promise! A.A. Resources if needed. Work pressures and home pressures may be causing you to depend on alcohol and if you are afraid to stop relying on alcohol to ease the pain, then you really do want to consider these resources. 20 years ago, I was terrified to think about not using alcohol because I didn't think I could do it. Truth is, I didn't do it, my higher power did (my higher power is the Christian God but others rely on their own faith's or even an unknown higher power to help them).

AA Official site
AA Find a Meeting
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I am praying for you:
Quote:
Dear God, who saved me from alcohol and who sustained me through my divorce. Reach out to this hurting woman and show her your love through people on this board and through others in her community including the doctors or counselors and even A.A. members if needed.

Thank you for hearing this prayer, thank you in advance for your help for her.

Amen


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