CNT, it takes more courage to stay here on this earth and sort out the drama.
I would certainly do the same and encourage you to see a counselor. They have the uninvolved neutral perspective. Do you have a program through your work? I have the opportunity to use six sessions a year that are pre-paid so to speak and that is where I started. It resulted in some other referrals that have been quite beneficial to me.
Although I agree that antidepressants might be a consideration, I would caution you to keep a journal of your observations on any medications. They are not always as they seem.
I tried antidepressants and I ended up being very paranoid. Anxiety was a big component with me as well so I tried some anti-anxiety meds and didn't react well to them either. I only mention this as a caution that if you don't feel improved, ask about something else and let the care provider know how you are feeling physically and mentally.
Good luck to you. Do keep posting. There are people here with WONDERFUL insight who can offer some very unique perspectives.
