Welcome back to the BEST place you can be - we are all in this together and we WILL help you get through it all. I know how you feel, I have been there and the pain was unbearable at times and I felt the world would be better off without me. But then I looked at my children and thought "how selfish am I to leave my children without a mother just because I don't want to face the pain, what am I teaching them". It didn't take away the pain, but it did give me a new perspective on how I had to deal with things and I hope it will for you too.
PLEASE seek some professional help ASAP - you need to get on AD as soon as you can - go to the emergency ward of your local hospital if you have to and tell them how you have considered suicide. There are LOTS of people out there that can help, including the wonderful people on this board.
Keep posting and venting to us, and we will be there for you ALL THE WAY!!!
Glad you are back cntcope - ((((hugs))))
Heywyre
M - 57 H - 65 1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02 2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06 together 21 years *************************** Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)
