I am at a real tough spot in my life. My H took a job in the midwest til November. He brought his trailer home and stayed the night. Was very affectionate all night. We ml in the morning and it was really nice. I went with him to bring his other venicle back which was 60 miles away. He was also trading for a new PU for his job. We were cleaning out his old PU and I came across old pictures of his other A which he said to throw away. His new OW had left her business cards in there and he had taken some machine for her to get it fixed. The receipt was in there. She had also made him 5 shirts that he was taking. I ask did she make those. He said yes. HE said he didn't want to deal with that now it was tough enough to leave as it was. Whatever!!!! When we said good bye he hugged and kissed me and was crying be hind his glasses. It was pretty emotional. He called me about 4 times and then I didn't hear from him till he texted me at 10:30 last night to tell me where he was and good nite. That was strange he didn't call. I know there isn't phone service in some of the places but what I think is she rode back there with him. Ususally first thing he will call in the morning and I haven't heard from him. I know its bad to assume but its pretty easy to figure it out. He told me he loved the boys and I and to take care of them and for us not to pull away. I also saw a text where she had told him that she luv him andwill miss him.
I guess the icing on the cake. I went to turn some stuff off in his 5th wheel trailer and she had helped him clean and taken all my stuff out and thrown it away. I haven't told him I know that yet.
He talked and talked to me about our business and how we need to keep it going and what to do while he is gone. It was like he was planning our future but it is hard for me to when I know she is there planning their future. She will stop at nothing now. She is an evil person and she always gets her way. What is funny she is everything he used to dispise in a women. Except she has a super clean house and hasn't gained weight but she has 4 kids that all live with there dad becasue she is such a bab mother. She is a very selfish person and it is funny how none of that has come out yet. She is telling people that H has served me papers and I won't sign them and I am b&*$#. Oh well.
What I need support on after I have vented here. Is I know I need to detach and let him go to this new job he will be working 6 days aweek and traveling. He has said before that he doen't know if he wants to be married to me anymore but turns around and is nicer than he has ever been. Just like yesterday morning when he left he was as nice as could be. Its like we are best friends. He compliments me all the time. What do I do!!!! I know I need to step back and take a few deep breaths. I need to get all the finiances in order which I handle ( he is also making a good amount of money back there) and inventory all of our business assests (it is a partnership with his brother and dad) just in case he comes back and wansts to leave. I don't think he will ever filed for D he wants me to do it , so he isn't the bad guy. His own family has told me that. Unless she puts alot of pressure on him. But that is assuming a lot.
I know him and when he is on the job he will call in the morning to her and me and then call thru out the day. I really have a strong feeling that she went back there and is flying back. Boy it is hard to detach and I was doing pretty well. It is like he knows he should be with the boys and I but he can't break away from her. HE likes the security of having me here I think. and I know he would be there for me. He is not mean about it unless he gets mad and then goes on what I need to improve on which is a list a mile long from his point of view but he doesn't see all the other things I do .
I know Virginia told me to go to MLC forum and I think I will post a small post over there because he fits it perfect for the last 5 to 7 years.
If anyone has any advice I sure could use it. My boys will be home next week from college and then they will go to work but they will be close. I am lucky that they are so supportive. They are my anchors. H has a big family and they are so supportive of me. His mom came and visited with me last night and she is at a lost on what to do. She said he will have to work thru it maybe with him being gone so far away from everyone he will figure it out. They do not like his OW. They all know her. We live in a small country atomshere and he has alot of relatives so when she started saying she was dating H it spread around fast.(h answer to that ws it wasn't anybody's busy what he did). My parents don't know because they would get sick with worry and I don't need that now. I have no brothers and sisters. It is funny my SIL are probably my best friends. I am really close to 4 of them. We do alot together so its a tough situation. I do have alot of close friends but I get tired of answering questions on what am I going to do and how long am I going to live like this. Which it Is driving me crazy.
I am really on a venting binge this morning Sorry. I know I am just rambling about her and I need to think about me but it helps to get off my chest to someone else.
Thnaks if someone listens I just needed a little support.
