The thing that is bothering me the most is that he's already got a family... and he's always walking away from us. He'll have his *son* and his woman *ugh*.... and my family has fallen into nothingness..
That breaks my heart. It's not that I don't want him to be happy (I hope he finds his happiness), I just hate that he did all these things with me, and made these girls... and then decided he hated it. He has wrecked two innocent lives, and that bothers me. I feel responsible because for some reason he always makes me feel like I am defective and I am the reason he can't stand to stay. I know that it's not the truth... but it's a hard thing to shake.
I am just awaiting the papers now.... I hope it shakes him hard to get the papers from me (that might be wrong, but I want him to feel some shred of what he's put me through).
