Sashaying thru Seperation II

[mcojh]

Just rambling for a few minutes. Last night was really hard. I wanted to drive by W's Apt to see if she was home or not. I have no reason to think either way, but I fought the urge and won. I went to bed early, hoping to fall asleep. I did and made it through the night.

This is such a difficult thing to do at times. As I have said so many times, I just want to be able to hold her again, but I don't know if I will ever be able to.......

I will probably see her again today, half of me cannot wait and half of me wishes I wouldn't see her, because it is so hard not to pursue.....