Hi CNT. I hope you're reading all the posts to you and that you feel a bit better. Like everyone else has said, a lot of us have been where you are.
I remember when I first came to the bb and was hurting so badly. Like there was a giant weight on my chest. I had people posting to me that had been going through all this longer than I had been. They told me it would get better but I didn't believe it. It just hurt sooooo bad!
But guess what? It DOES get better. They really knew what they were talking about. Everyone here will help you and support you but you should talk to your dr. or call a hotline as was suggested. You will make it through this and I think you will do it if for no other reason than the fact that you love your kids and they love their mom. Don't deprive them of having you in their lives. They would be devastated.
Hang in there and get some help. And remember, we're here for you anytime. And everyone is praying for you.
