Thanks for following along. I really don't know. I have known this man since 1990. I really believe he is for the most part, an open book. I don't think he hardly ever really watches porn or looks at it on the internet. This weekend, he is simply making a day trip to pick up some things that he can sell this next week to help make some money for us. I truly think there is no big secret, I just think he has some "mental hang ups" which are torturing him.
He said that he feels rejection by me when he knows (or thinks) that I did things with a one-night stand as an 18-year-old that I won't do with him, his husband. He said I used to get all hot and bothered by THEM, so why can't I with HIM.
Does this help any at all? I don't know what to do. I admit, I feel kind of half hearted about our sex life sometimes. I think we have a decent sex life, but it is not wild n crazy and spectacular. We have more sex than most of my friends in similar situations (married with kids.)
