CL i really appreciate that. i dont really have any friends. i have one down the street and u(pretty sad i know) i have wrapped myself so much in my children and husband that i never had time for myself. my family keeps telling my that it wont last two and i am praying that all of you are right. i do have a lot that i need to work on. i am about to start counceling. my h refused to go but i have issues of my own that i need to work on. i have gained alot of weight in my marriage. i was 125 when i got married. igot up to 261 pounds. i was working on my weight and had dropped 50 pounds and his response was that he couldn't see a difference. since he has left i have dropped my exercising which i know is the worst thing i could do but i am really having a hard time. as far as getting a hobby i feel like i dont even know myself anymore so where do i start? i am a stay at home mom so i dont have a lot of chances to meet new people. and that is another thing not only for myself but to show my h that i can loose the weight, i am gonna have to get a job when school starts back in the fall and i will feel more confident about my interviews if i were to loose more weight. truthfully, i think my h and i do need to be separated right now to work on our issues,it would just be easier if the ow wasnt in the picture. how is he suppose to realize what he is missing if he has her and what do i do about him being so cold and distant when he comes over.? I don't know what to do and i am sorry that this is so long.
me-30 h-38 m-11 yrs s-6 s-7 ss-13 h left-april 21,2007 found out of ea april 1, 2007
