I was an LDH for a good while. She never threatened to leave over it; I don't know how close to giving up she was, and I don't think she knows either. Interestingly, while I was in that state, I didn't breathe a word of it to anybody, even anonymous Internet people; only after I started on medication and turned things around was I even willing to look at sites like this one.
Also, like you mentioned, I find that I do get turned on by drama, and I get very turned on by the thought of my wife with another man. Not that she's ever done that, or (as far as I know) even considered doing that, but imagining it is a real turn on, and we've both noticed that when she talks about a guy at the gym that she thinks is cute, I'm all over her. A lot of times, when I watch porn, instead of imagining that I'm the guy, I imagine that the girl is my wife and I'm watching her do it with the other guy. I'm not about to encourage that sort of thing in real life (I know it's a bad idea all around), but I know I'd still love her and want her (and probably want to ravish her even more) if she had a fling or even a boyfriend on the side.
Last edited by Crazy Eddie; 05/04/0706:22 PM.
a fine and enviable madness, this delusion that all questions have answers, and nothing is beyond the reach of a strong left arm.
